And that's it.
Since a long time without open myself for dates I'm trying to back to the game again.
Ok, GAME: I don't like this work but I think it's the most appropriate.
But you know... we are living our lives,
and we walk around the streets,
and we go to bars,
clubs,
and we meet the friends of our friends,
we meet knew friends who have new friends,
and we go for house parties,
and we have facebook,
myspace...
And we flirt,
we smile,
AND WE ARE ALREADY IN THE GAME.
THERE IS NO CHOICE, IT'S LIFE MACHINE OPERATING ITSELF.
But like I told before, I was not in the mood for dates.
And now... I can feel the mess all around!
You have all this different people that you met and invitations for drinks, just a coffee, a complete night with dinner or just for casual sex and you don't know what to do.
I really can imagine that for certain people is easier to arrange all the mess, but for me!
I can make more and more mess all over it!
I appoint and re-schedule and cancel and give up...
WHY?
BECAUSE I AM STILL WAITING TO FEEL AGAIN ALL THE BUTTERFLIES IN MY STOMACH!
I OPERATE IN THIS WAY.
And for sure I don't know to be different.
For sure that's a lie, some of my friends can say.
I used to be a good player.
And I still can be one.
Therefore I am getting older and I don't want "half things".
How I hate half of a love
In the same way I do not conform to be half hungry
Not delight me be a half dead
And not satisfy me have a half fuck
Could I translate all the emotion in the Ferreira Gullar poetry?
I hope God forgive me for trying to to do that!
Anyway, that's the point in my life right now and ever:
I WANT TO FEEL THINGS STRONG ENOUGH TO MAKE MY LEGS TREMBLE!
I WANT AGAIN BUTTERFLIES IN MY STOMACH!
Such a teenager, you can think.
And yes, I agree.
But thinking like a man, I am going out for a date tonight.
Maybe tonight, in our second meeting, I might find something new.
AT LEAST, I HOPE SO.