notas do fim da garrafa!

Life is good.
And good things happen for good people.
I am feeling really proud of me. And about my determination.
I still cannot understant somethings about english.
Or about the english american people use.
Or about amercian people.
Or just about people in general.

I AM IN GWENN'S HOUSE. IT'S SATURDAY NIGHT.
WE HAD PISCO FROM PERU... BEERS FROM CALIFORNIA.
NOW WE ARE GOING TO HAVE SOME P . O . T . THAT THE GIRLS ARE GOING TO GET.
AND MORE BEERS.
WE ARE LISTENING GOOD MUSIC.
AND EVEN THE STRAIGH GUY HERE, MIKE - THE ROOMMATE, IS SUCH A QUEEN!
HE IS HOT! RISOS.

I miss feel full of love.
But I realize I need to walk in the line.
My line.


I am drunk.
Don't pay attention on me.
Don't give a shit on me.

I put VOGUE to play in the I TUNES.
Such a gay song!

DRUNK DRUNK DRUNK!
Cristina and me... we are playing like Jack and Karen from Will And Grace.
Of course I'm Karen! RISOS.

There is a beautiful dog in the house. Lilly.
She is a half pit bull and a half boxer.
She is lovelly and kissed me all the time.
Maybe I am becoming a straigh guy. Or a dog.
Am I becoming a dog?

"It makes no difference if your black or white.
If your a boy or a girl.

...


VOGUE VOGUE."

Shut up boy!
Back to your beers.
Forget the sadness.


YES WE CAN.

IT'S HARD, BABE. LIFE IS HARD.

At this hard times I've been thinking about choices.
And at this hard times, and I am repeating to make sure that you understand what I'm talking The first one is to act in life like Vivien Leigh in the Elia Kazan movie "A Streetcar named desire". In the end of this marvelous movie you can see Blanche Dubois (Leigh's character) go deep in her crazyness and fragility and says:

"I ALWAYS DEPEND ON THE KINDNESS OF STRANGERS".
And this is our first option.

The second and tough option is to bring to life the strengh of the sentence - therefore do not the vulnerability - of the character of Annette Benning in the Sam Mendes' movie "American Beauty":

"I REFUSE TO BE A VICTIM".

And I picked this second one. And I'm glad I did that.
Do you wanna know what I'm talking about?
I can tell you. I'm not ashamed.
I've been absent of this blog because I have been working to much.
I am dog walking (what is such a delicious because my three little friends made my days), I am hosting in a restaurante (in the weekend brunch, what is such annoying because there's nothing worst then hungry people) and I am deliverying.
Yes. I HAVE BEEN WORKING IN BIKE DELIVERY.


What are you doing with all you knowledge?


Surviving. I AM JUST DOING WHAT I MIGHT DO.


If I am happy?
OF COURSE. I AM STILL IN THE CITY I WANT TO LIVE.
I LOVE THIS CITY AND I DON'T WANT TO COME BACK.
Of course I am still looking for another job and opportunities, but like I said two times in the beggining of this text: THESE ARE HARD TIMES, DUDE!

Things will get better soon. I do believe it.

BECAUSE I REFUSE TO BE A VICTIM!

This text is dedicated to:

Patricia Santos, minha roommate

Manuela Eicher, minha irma e amiga

Mariela Star, que compartilha comigo dessa opiniao (tenhoo certeza)

perto do coracao selvagem.

It's so fucking bad when you spent all night long trying to sleep and you don't get it!
This is happenning with me since one month ago!
I'm getting crazy!


BRILHO ETERNO DE UMA MENTE SEM LEMBRANCAS?
eternal sunshine of a spotless mind?


UMA SAUDADE GIGANTE DOS AMIGOS.
UMA SAUDADE GIGANTE DO VERAO.
UMA VONTADE DE ESTAR NA PRAIA.
UMA VONTADE DE ALMOCAR NA CASA DOS MEUS PAIS NUM DOMINGO.
UMA VONTADE DE BEIJAR NA BOCA (NAQUELA BOCA).
PISTA DE DANCA.
GELATINA DE MORANGO.
MINHA IRMA.
MINHA IRMA.
MINHA IRMA.
MINHA IRMA.

Ok... but your homesick by your side and remember that tonight is a good night for a movie.
What about HE'S JUST NOT THAT INTO YOU?
Perfect movie for me, I think.


Prometo fotos logo logo.
Tenho varias novas.
Sexta que vem tem show do CLAP YOUR HANDS AND SAY YEAH.
Lindo que sou, estou indo ao BAM, no Brooklyn comprar meu ticket today.

Beijo nos amigos.
DON'T CALL ME A BITCH JUST BECAUSE I'M PHEENO.

2046

Ontem a noite eu assisti novamente ao belissimo  filme do Wong Kar Wai. Definitivamente um dos meus diretores favoritos e talvez o que mais entenda de cores na minha opiniao. O filme 

e' tao suave e belo, e as imagens de um total controle e vc acaba por ficar descontrolado.

LOVE IS ALL ABOUT TIMING... reflete um dos personagens.

Aproveitei a solidao do meu quarto e fmei meus ultimos dois cigarros. Lembrei de momentos deliciosos quando eu recbia amigos na minha casa ou ia a casa de outros amigos para assistirmos a filmes em meio a coidinhas e cigarros. Uau! Saudade 'e buraco fundo feito com a ponta do dedo indicador no meio do peito. Puta que pariu!

Anyway... ontem eu me deixei levar elo desejo e ... E sim. Me deixei levar pelo desejo e aceitei um convite que, acredite, meu corpo nao tem sentido muita vontade para.

Mas a que se voltar a vida real e normal... e um convite desse tipo sempre da uma acordada quando aceito.

Anyway... I go riding my bike... yes... riding a bike.. kkkkkkkkkkk....... at least up to the weekend when I am going to start my host position.

TOUGH, DUDE! HARD!

Fiquem bonitinhos ai... que eu to querendo ficar bonitinho aqui.

PS.: QUERO O MEU PEDACO DO PA-CI-FI-CO!